The Birdie That Took Off

I loved the funny geocities testiflash of the singing bird I posted a couple of days ago...but it really had to go..LOL!...too noisy... Its out of tune sing song was way too much to bear for every time I open this. And I must say I love opening this blog..It has become a sanctuary of some sort for me...like a real home where I can just be myself. It is evolving as well...

I've finally managed to figure the flickr and will spend a bit of time tidying up my collection of photos...I also intend to group up with local people who are into pictures...I was surprised to discover that there are many groups based here who are into amateur photography....

I'm also hoping to be able to fill in this blog with the beat of "mais que nada"...which is so me...

exciting..exciting..

Also I figure, another blog wouldn't do any harm....a personal repository of my cooking ideas..what meals I want to plan for the week..what stuff I would like to buy for my home..even clothes...It's a personal thing but I love seeing my plans in color..it gives me direction.....

My "Art de' Lux" blog on the other hand is for my random prayers..affirmations..a little poetry accompanied by photos I took and tweaked myself..Of course "sensualuxious" is for the places I go to..dedicated to the beauty of my country...

And I've been blogging for three years now...My first one was in Tripod..it's still there and I visit once in a while to read about my past...

There are no exact words to tell how much I love this experience. I love the thought of reading others..I have learned so much by just sitting here and diving into the innermost thoughts of the world...It has brought me an appreciation of life..of people...of how we are all one...and yet uniquely different....It wasn't really my aim to connect with people....to gain cyber friends that is because in meat space..I am a very shy person....but fun, accepting and supportive once I get settled into a friendship...I believe I am a loyal friend...I would not give up a friendship just because of a mistake..a wrong doing....I encourage and stay true....I wait...I aways wait...I remember friends making me wait....some for a really long time..but I stay till that friend arrives...I never leave....

And as I said..in my side bar I whispered for a "few intimate souls"..I have that..I am so grateful for the experience of connecting with you......

you who are here reading this...I feel like I do know you...even if the chances of me ever seeing you in person is close to....nada.....

Right now..I'm working on becoming a friendlier person....in meat space that is....and I guess in cyber...

Lately, I've been too cloistered...too into me......

I can't believe that I really am "shy"...

didn't notice through the years because I always grouped in with the same people..talking about the same topics..teaching..education..kids...Now that I'm into a different industry...thrust into it because of this shift in my career..I find myself..a bit intimidated...It doesn't show....It's inside...a little pang that says..."uh' oh'..people comin' up to talk to you...what to do..what to do..what if you say the wrong thing huh?..what then?..".

I've also been experiencing bouts' of depression..I dunno' if this is hormonal or brought about by the trauma of being bitten or brought about by the injections....sigh!..Lately it seems as if wherever I go I think people are talking about me...if somebody walking in the street just as much as glances at me...inside, my mind is asking "what in the world could she be thinking"..a paranoia of some sort....

I know how to completely cure this though..

action..doing something..fighting it....maybe lessen caffeine....nope..not that..he!he!....

I thank God though that I know I have inner strength and that He gives me people to read..people to meet....and these people inspire me...you inspire me....

and so...a Happy Bloggy' month to me..and a "thank you" to you from the bottom of my heart for being with me for a year now....

Blessings to you...always..