Anniversawy' Glee (edited version)

"Arms around me close to midnight "

Wow..I love this picture of the both of us....I must have it printed, enlarged and framed. I won't be writing a new post just yet...I just want to see this...I love it when we spend a night out together...I love it when we're at home and we suddenly decide to head out for Starbuck's with the kids...These are my memories....

And' ye' I guess my blog is beginning to look like a Luxie shrine...adore..adore..adore me oh' me..nye he!he!he!....Don't mean to glory in me pics...( but then again the wise Foam said.."if we don't build a shrine to ourself..who elsewill?"...yeehah to that lol!!..)....just that..my life right now is very monumental...and I want to remember this in the years to come...I need to save this blog one way or another...No....I don't spill every stored concoction of emotion..but when I see pics such az' thiz'..I get transported back and remember just exactly what went on that day...along with it is the mem'ry of what we had to deal with...

And this was taken last Saturday night...We celebrated his birthday as well as our 18th year anniversary. Just saying that word "anniversary" conjures a well of emotions inside of me..words aren't even enough....All I can say is what I've learned...marriage is tough....it doesn't guarantee happiness..it doesn't guarantee this sense of joy or peace or stability... these experiences are both our individual decisions to make...every single day...

"17 years old entering his 2nd year of college - Business Administration major in Marketing and Advertising"

One of the memorable moments of the night was when we were in the car on our way to dinner...He said that I didn't lose myself or my identity through the years he's known me...."I think you have become you because you didn't try to change me"...A sensitive lovely thought....

I can say we've come a long way.....and I am thankful that someone is with me all these long way to go...Yes, it amazes me that someone is with me....

And we are both relieved that in our age our kids don't need nappy changes when some of our friends have kids barely in nursery...Our bulging challenges are different though...because we feel now more than ever in their life our boys need us....They need our presence our assurance and our guidance....They need to see us strong, decisive and principled...

"15 going on 16 this June...Entering his senior year in high school"

This scares me more than anything else...My boys are no longer at that age wherein they will just take anything I say as the best of mommy....no...These teenage years are far more difficult....and sometimes it leaves us just overwhelmed...

But we are determined to see this through..We are determined to make each day better...It's not easy..yes..yes...but we have made it through eighteen years of laughter and tears and confusion and fears and victory...so what's a lifetime more of the same eh?...

Ye'...come to think of it...

If I were to live through everything again...I'd still want to be with the same hubby..the same sonnies...and the same mad barking Bushy'.....yep!!