Friday, January 05, 2007

Wondering..Wanderings

Cappuccino loves?

The phone is still off the hook. I don't want to talk to anyone or see anyone. I'm sorry. No, this isn't some morose New Year back to reality blues....I don't think so. I merely want some time to be alone...while I still can..before I saddle my horse and veer it inside the arena of me' life and rodeo with the competition.

Shucks! Life is tough. Life is wild. No amount of Shiraz can drown that reality. It's either you rein your horse where you wish it to go or simply let the beast ride you off a meadow......or a cliff....meadow...cliff...meadow...cliff.....Rode some horses when I was a kid...not afraid.

I'm just taking a moment to suck in some strength here.....knowing that this year could hold anything for me....could be bliss...could be tragedy...the meadows and cliffs of life...whatever...I'm not afraid.

I'm not afraid. And I'm not dumb.

Dumb. When I was a kid there wasn't a day when I wasn't reminded how much of a dumb genious I was....almost believed it.....maybe I did...in a way...but I was genious enough to know that I was starting to belive the dumb that I was....in a way....That was in the past. Trash.

Everything is in the past now. A memory....to haunt or inspire...Do you like your memories?..Do they haunt....do they inspire...are they Hallmarky?...

Memories can be junked..deleted...or replaced. I've done those.

Memories can also be stolen...like in my husbands office...someone stole memory cards off computers when no one was looking....

Memories can be sold.....and I bet that's what's going to happen to the missing memory cards from the office...

Inside my mind I have a treaasure chest...Shhh..nobody knows about this....It's safe...hidden......There is no map to it...There is no X to mark the spot...I've hidden it pretty well.

What's inside?....

Bronze and jade and gold and silver and diamonds the size of Dubai...Oh' how the king of the Emirates would be envious of my priceless possession!....A rare ornamental chest of priceless memories...handcrafted by me.....I created those memories....I can create some more.... this year...

Some day.....when I am really..really..reaaaally wrinkly old and silver haired...I will open up my treasure chest to a little girl who looks a lot like me...Ah!..wouldn't that be fun?...

Fun...I love fun...

When I am old and wrinkly I will also ride a swing...and lick a lollipop....the big kind with rainbow swirls...Who cares what people would think of a 95 year old swinging lollipop sucking me..bah!

But you know what isn't fun?...

Hate....

Hate isn't fun. Some people think it is....though...

How sad...to think that hate is fun....and not to know that to hate is sad...

I've seen some..sad hating people....linked somewhere...picture and picture and pictures of people he hated...I don't think he knew those people...He just didn't like their...... color...

How sad not to like color....

This world is filled with colors...How can one who live in a planet of color stand to be alive?....It must be a struggle for this person to even breath...Or maybe he doesn't...breath....

I know something else that isn't fun....

Injecting stuff inside your lips isn't fun....Stuff like fat....Some very pretty girls where I live think that fat stuffed lips are fun to look at....I don't think so....being distorted isn't my idea of fun...It's...gross....

It's gross to walk around with bloated lips so you can look like Ms. Jolie...What's sexy for Ms. Jolie won't work for me...or she...God gave us lips just right for the size of our face..and..and I think...( now this is just me thinking here...) that if nothing is wrong with ones lips...( like it isn't punctured or twisted bad)...then it should just be....Big girls should love their lips as it is...Fake lips remind me of squid......

Like fake boobies...hmmm...fake boobies don't shake do they?...like...like they're just there...bulging...unmoving....stuffed with something...I wonder if they're painful...hmmm..I wonder if stiff lips are painful...How does it feel like to kiss fake lips...just wondering....I like to mind wonder off..sometimes...

And if you feel like wondering off yourself..I might have ( if blogger permits....if not tomorrow perhaps...) posted some pics of my wanderings from last year....

http://sensualuxious.blogspot.com

I wish we could all hold hands....

( ps: Hello to everyone....I think I'm getting my bloggy' mojos back....finally..I can only post a few pics today...)

15 comments:

Tea & Margaritas in My Garden said...

Enjoyed reading your thoughts in this post! Glad I`m not the only one who thinks odd things at times LOL
Great pictures too farther back....I`m catching up :) And what a gorgeous natural pool at your other blog!
Have a fantabulous new year!

tea
xo

Aunty Belle said...

Luxie, me too--bein' incommunicado fer a spell-doan wanna tal to so many folks, so I jes' take the phone off the hook.

Yore new year will be great--plan on it. Move toward what ya know ya really wanna be/do/see/know and in one short year you will have come so far!!

Mayden's Voyage said...

Take the time to re-charge...
I'm off for a walk-
Miss you :)

Mr. Althouse said...

I hate those things as well. It seems the older I get, the more authentic I become. It is authenticity that attracts me - truth and all manifestations of truth is what I seek - always.

I enjoy reading you thoughts from across the world, Luxie - I honestly do. I can count on you for the real deal, the authentic Lux - and that's always enough.

Mike

schaumi said...

luxie,
your new year will be great...i'm sure you'll make good things happen for yourself. and the inevitable tough times will be ridden out.
i don't have my bloggin' mojo back yet at all..

Hliza said...

Happy New Year Lux! I hate fake things..we're far from perfect and I believe our loved ones will accept us as we are..no amount of fake silicon or whatever things you inject will be enough to satisfy you or guarantee love..

Gary said...

I agree about the fake boobies. Also the fake lips, though I don't think I've actually seen anyone in person that had them.

I also agree that hate is not fun. I can't think of anyone I hate. It just isn't worth it.

butterflygirl said...

I actually feel bad for people who are filled with such hatred.

X. Dell said...

(1) Taking time off is sometimes necessary. Then again, it's sometimes addicting. Everything in moderation, you know.

(2)I don't think some people find it fun to hate. I think it runs deeper. It's that hate is a very visceral emotion. In our (US/Western) culture, the suppression of feeling is not only condoned, but encouraged to a large part. Sometimes people would rather feel hate, than feel nothing at all.

schaumi said...

hey, just dropping by to say hi on a sunday morn...

K9 said...

/bark bark bark

lux you must locate and listen to

"video" by india arie...its the soundtrack to this excellent post.

/grrrr

Sue said...

Yeah, that lip thing is really weird - Just what is it with big lips? Do they really think they look cool- all big and bloated?!

Hannelie said...

Luxie, I'm still around and catching up on reading blogs again.
I loved your pwwwomises! and your wanderings. So true the things you thought off, I do the same sometimes.
Have a happy Happy 2007 Luxie!
BTW: I love your photo's, why does it always look as if you are just having fuuuunnnn!!!???

LADY LUXIE said...

Hannelie: Hello there!..Cruised by your bloggy' awhile ago...loved the changes..I'll be in touch!

Sue: The reason I posted a bit of my take on "thick lips" is because it's a fad here. Cosmetic surgery is becoming very affordable and everyone wants to look like a movie star...so far..I think it's ridiculous!..

K9: found it! found it!..loved it!

X:DELL: In moderation..you are so right. I know a lot about hate.

Butterfly: Just wondering why people bother with hate..when life is so short...

Gary: Lots of people here with just about fake anything...even fake smiles..

Hliza: That's it..satisfaction...People crave that...but it is oh' so elusive eh?

Schaumi: just revin' up my bloggy mojos me'self'...rrrr...rrrrr....rrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Mike: Oh' shucks Mike..thanks for the lovely words...

Mayden: wait!!...I'm walkin' with you!..( me grabbing shawl...)

Aunty Bell: Lovely to hear from you Aunty...Thanks for the necouragement..I'll drop by your porch...

Tea: Hi!...Thank you..thank you for your lovely words...I do so always enjoy my trip to your bloggy' home! :>>

C-dell said...

Sometime life is rough, but that is just the lot of humanity. Having time to yourself really helps. So you take that time to yourself.