Friday, February 09, 2007

ThiZ FriEnds...ov' MinE..




Bloggy break'..for me here...Am doing things on a run coz' I'll be
meeting up with a few sweet friends for lunch...former teachers...just like me...We've had great times together and haven't really had the chance to catch up that much..career shifts...obligations..routines...everything in between..life is busy....life is busy....

And what kind of a friend am I..I wonder?...

I make people laugh..and they say I'm a hit to be with...I pull the punches at the right time and say the silliest things that can rock your tonsils..I know I'm fun...But..beyond that...beyond fun...what sort of a friend am I..really?..How far would I go for friendship?...mmmmm......

Introspecting me...looking inside.....within..nu nu nu....friend..friend...friend....sigh!..

Don't have a LoT of friends...People I know..ye'..But friends as in friends...I can count em' in my fingers...one..two..three..four....less than ten?!....I'm talking meat space here....Thinking..thinking......okay..maybe 12.....

I know I ought to reconnect with someone.....old friends who seem to be a bit cold to me...did something last Christmas that wasn't too "friendly"....I was a "no show"....at the dinner we planned together...The dinner they moved to a date that was convenient for "me"...then I didn't show up...gawd..I tried...but I wasn't expecting work to fall at the same moment....It was beyond my control.....and now..I know..it still hangs....this deed of darkness that I did...I apologized...and reasoned...and of course up front it was okay...settled...but I know there's still current underneath...I have to smoothen things out....BuT....but.....where will I find the time?.....

career shifts..obligations...routines.....busy life....busy life...

I need to think this over tonight...Friendship takes effort..time..resources...it's an emotional investment......

How can I improve?...How can I improve?....How can I be a better friendly me?...hmmmm

4 comments:

X. Dell said...

I must not be a really good friend, or at least not lately. I've become absent in a lot of people's lives, when I don't mean to be. I don't know why, except that I sometimes become so focussed on what I'm doing that I lose any concept of time and self.

LADY LUXIE said...

nya ha!..there it is...you gave me the words...now all I have to do is write an email to 3 people...yep'...I'm going to admit I haven't been much of a good friend lately..and I'm not making excuses because I admit I lose concept of time and self..and everything else when I'm focused..and that I know exactly what I did that was wrong..and sigh...we've been friends since high school and that's important to me...and I'm sorry..again.

i hope they write back.

thanks X....and I'm sure your friends miss you a whole lot...

Hliza said...

Yup..same here..not been a good friend lately..or most of the time. My good friends know that they can't rely on me to contact them..they normally do the SMSing and calling..I'm always happy to hear their voice..just too lazy to make a move first. But they do know that I still remember and appreciate them..I hope they still do..

LADY LUXIE said...

Hi Hliza!..Exactly meeh!..hee!hee!...sometimes I feel closer to me' cybie friends...