One Way..which way?!

"duh'..one way which way??!"

About two in the morning I think..uhuh'...That's about the time I was able to snooze off...and if it weren't for the pesky mosquitoes I would have been happy enough to just laze away the night in me' terrace..talking to dippers and saluting whizzing stars...But off to me' bed I went after signing out ov' me' last post...

I believe I was able to at least have five hours of shut eye...not bad I guess....will probably have a better sleep tonight....ye'...I know I have much to do this week..and the next probably...I still feel uptight and the pic above sooo just describes my being right now...Decisions..decisions...decisions...this way..no..that way...this..no..that....aaarggghhh...

Ah' but I haven't been doing me' meditative rituals religiously...maybe I should in a while...I think this is some sort of a relax ritual for me anyway...this flicking me' fingers here....like I just need my hands to move....to slink on through this board...it has a life of its own...uhuh'...

I would love to go visit...but want to just hug me knees in one corner and be by me'self the same time..see?..can you see me in that corner behind you?....oooh'can any ov' you squeeze through my monitor...even a hand will do.....I've got the last of the vanilla ice beside me...I'll share.....no more cones I'm afraid..devoured that yesterday...

oh'..and I would love to write me' post on the nominees I have in mind for the "Thinking Blogger"..I will..I will..tomorrow...Right now..I'm living true to my nomination..dwaats'..am' thinking deep about..sigh....about decisions....ye'...I have to read the signs..signs..signs....around me...nu nu nu..what to do....what to do....what to do...

PS: I will answer the questions you posted Mr. X:DELL..haven't forgotten...oh' and the cat is a stray...

Dizzy Disappointment

Disappointment I think is a feeling...yes..a feeling I do so rarely feel. Maybe..because I don't put heavy expectations on people or on situations..or perhaps...in a way I have a bit of a cool personality..giving leeway to understanding when things don't turn out as expected. Also..I know I easily recover....bounce back when things don't go my way...

However, something happened recently that paved the way for this rare visitor to enter my home...my home here being my inner spirit...I felt it...a wave of sadness and regret knowing that one major expected result is not going to transpire...the death of a dream....oh' yes..I now know that dreams can die..such as stars do.....Of course, coming hand in hand with death is birth....birth of a new dream....It remains however, for now..the fact that I am greatly disappointed.

Okay..now that I understand this...how shall I choose to act?..Will I give way to the seductive thought of creeping into one corner and start crying...or perhaps..bang my head on a wall....or something a bit more creative like throwing a major tantrum coupled with hissing and gnarling and gnashing and spewing greenish venom....maybe roll my eyes backward while twisting my head a full 360 degrees...to express my whole disappointed contempt for what has happened...

I could gorge on food...a whole lot...or perhaps..ahh' better yet to drown a whole case of beer and fling each bottle over all my neighbor's boring rooftops....Then again, I could belly dance in the highway...Maybe wearing sack cloth and covering myself in ashes while walking upside down towards Malacanang Palace ( think.. White House) demanding to meet the President would relieve me...

Haaaah!..snooks...I guess not...Just hangin' around here in my bloggy' home is respite enough...And maybe staring at the lunch me Hubz' prepped last Sunday would soothe me...

mem'ries of a good time...ya'