My YOU Inspiration

Self expression...this is what my blog is all about. And I believe that though my posts may sometimes ring silly, writing here has made me a calm happier person.

Reflecting on this, I am so just sorry for Shakespeare and Hemingway and Monet and Poe and all those great great writers and artists and scientists and just about everyone else, big or small, who did not live to see this age of internet magic. Imagine their astounded expression if they could, by some divine beam of back to the future glitch in time, be here right now witnessing this technology. The power that we possess through this medium is just unbelievable. It is the true summation awesome of all AWESOME'S combined!

As for me, I discovered blogging magic one Sunday 2004 February morning through CNN. Sitting there in front of my Sony TV hearing what those fun savvy blogging women were up to, and how they could relate and excitingly connect with other women the world over was just tooooo much of a writing lust temptation to ignore. I simply could not.....could not resist.

36. I was 36 when I started writing online. My teaching days in school, where I went, what I ate, what I wore and who said who was mostly what I wrote about. Boring really. Gosh' face it, who on earth would want to read about a Filipina teacher's field trip at Enchanted Kingdom!? But I wasn't really expecting anyone to read. No cares really. Back then everything this is was just for the sheer narcissistic amusement of seeing my words on a monitor screen.

Then came my dark days. That sullen point when I had a few "issues" about me and about life in general. The more issues, the more cryptic writings appeared. I was a jarful of discombobulation. Words in jumbled thoughts poured...and swooshed and sloshed and poured to my detriment, sometimes, without even giving second thought.

When I started getting feedback from other bloggers the awesome infusion of cyberpace blood coursed through me. I felt like I wasn't just writing anymore. I was connecting. I was blogging. For real.

Those were my ABC baby footstep toddler tottering days of blogging . Not once did I ever read about blogging do's and don't s...I learned it first hand...mistakes and all....I am still learning.

This blog is about me still. About Me. It holds my inner thoughts, my humble meanderings...my simple reflections about life. However, it has also evolved into something much more important. This blog has become a portal of YOU. This is now about YOU.

It is about all the YOU's that I read and I visit and I connect to each moment I am here. It is about your life, and your day, and your story, and your happy, and your sadness, and your crazy, your inspiration, and your puzzles, and your food and your homes...just everything about you. Honestly, it is the inspiration I draw in from your story that makes blogging worthwhile.

When bloggers write from the heart, sharing words they wouldn't normally tell others in a real time conversation, I feel that. It makes the time I spend in cyberspace such an intimate uplifting experience. When people share their pictures..their art....their talent...the whole world seeps inside of me and takes a peaceful prism glow. Even if for a moment I feel you and I have ceased to become different. We are one.

I guess what I want to say is I am deeply grateful to be living today.

I am grateful to be so alive in this era. What a gift!

I am so just happy grateful for the wonderful opportunity to read all the blogs I read...

and I am so just grateful for the inspiration of YOU.

The Law of Attraction

Get the ball rolling!..Get the ball rolling! No matter what I say, a blogger I shall stay! And ' oh what a relief it is to grab on this time and zealously carve ornate words in optic air......I can even smell the sweet, mildly garlicky whiff of zzzz...zzzzing' currents...cybie neutrons locked with zappy' crouton powers to attract.......attract.......attract wordy connections.....

And I must mumble a demure "forgive me" for not being constant in replying to comments. I treasure the words and the time gifted to me by my cyber friends...most of whom have been here for so long..... blessed witnesses to weirdness....anger......irritation....sudden wails of nirvana....giggles...nonsense...food...career change...house change...dog bites...mutations...ye'...

Funny though because a few days before Mayden and Kate both made their much awaited block buster "You Tube" debut...I was thinking in the same line...Well, in about the same line...I was wondering about voices so think how knock out astounded I was to read several comment conversations expounding deep dark desires to hear bloggy' voices too....hee!..hee!..It was terribly fascinating to read what was going on in my mind was riding in the minds of others......simultaneously.....real time....

Which brings me back to this blinging sensation on the LAw of Attraction hyped by The Secret ( as shown in Oprah)....The law of Attraction being "what you desire..you attract into your life"....is not an original nirvanic concept to me...From Napoleon Hill to Steven Covey to Dr. Wayne Dyer to M. Scott Peck to just so many authors I have come across with emerge the same nuclei of a though...."that what the mind conceives..the body achieves".

However, there are blocks of realizations that the said production helped unlock inside my mind.. One of the most powerful is the understanding that emotions ( feelings) and thoughts are the power lines through which we make our desires fulfill themselves. Essentially, our feelings nudge us to whether we are thinking rightly or wrongly...and to think rightly...with joy is what propels a treasured thought to manifest itself. The core of making dreams a reality is a happy thought....

In Bible study, we were trained not to rely on feelings but to do what is right whether we feel like it or not.......Feelings are whimsical..fleeting and selfish...An unreliable gauge of the truth...

My knowing now reveals to me that my emotions are not to be denied..or shunned for indeed they are a gauge...a measure to whether my thoughts are aright....are healthy....are stable and aligned to what will serve make my dream stand before me...

Another powerful "illumination"..if I might call it that..is the idea that.."I make my own purpose." This....this phrase rocked me more than anything!

In my experience of doctrine and church...I was expounded to search for my purpose...to pray..and to wait for God to speak to me..about my purpose....here on earth...I may be doing one thing of which I might think is God's calling...but if in the process it would appear that I was not to succeed, then I can presume that what I thought was a calling...or my purpose...could turn out to be...dreadfully not so!!!...

And indeed God has given a purpose...but we...me...I.... create this purpose. There is no written rule that I should be but one thing in this life..and if I fail......fail..to do...to live this purpose..if I even fail to find this purpose...my life would have been wasted.

There is no losing purpose when you create your own...or confusion in having to find a purpose....or delusion....I simply purpose to be what I want to each day....It could be for this day...my purpose is to reach out to a friend...or to be kind to children..or to cook a good meal....Each day...a purpose....If I do..create my each day purpose...I would exit this world anytime ready...having fulfilled what is my purpose for the moment...My life..each day...filled with purpose...

The most sublime lesson I learned...was that..".I am not here to change the world." No...oh' gawd..how liberating...I cannot change anyone..or the reality of wars...or famine...or drug addiction...My reality isn't even the reality of the people around me...I cannot control them....

I create the life I want...I create the reality I want...What I see around me...what I have around me in my life is what I asked for...the residue of my past thoughts...my husband...( I thought about him when I was a teenager...someday I will meet a man..and he will be charming for me and love me always.....and here he is...)....my children....( when I was twelve..I remember holding a doll and looking at myself in the mirror..saying I'll be a mommy someday...here baby eat....), my home...( I wanted one with a balcony...where I can watch the moon and stars...)

How true!....How true!!

And though my reality isn't one of war...or famine...or desperate addiction...living and creating the peaceful purposeful reality I want each day helps bring peace on this world...

Nothing I heard in The Secret..is astoundingly new.....but amazingly....each phrase...each word that landed on my ears had power.....maybe because..I've felt this power in my life..these truths do happen in my life....

I hope the friends I have here and the people my husband and I will share this to will have an open mind.....and not just retort.."oh' how ungodly"...or how so unbiblical...diabolical....thou art lost sister....come back to the fold of yada' yada yada...."

ahh...but then...dinner time once again.....It is my upose to cook.....time to create something to eat...for real...hee!..hee!